Lose it.

Everything just seems to not make sense, the colours all just faded and suddenly, life became dull. What's really got into me? I reali don noe, but its like no matter wad u eat has no taste, what u see is colourless, what i hear is not getting in. I just feel that i'm starting to shut down towards everything around me. Nothing is made to last forever, eventually everything, everyone has got to leave. One by one, u watch them leave and you know deep down inside, there is nothing you can do.

What is friendship? Love? How about trust? respect? Do people really grow up, or will they jus remain the way they are? If i'm gone, would it be a solution? or just, an excuse to escape. I wanna try total isolation, but will it work? Fuck! there is just so much in my mind now. People who takes important things and see it as though its nothing, will they fucking grow up? Gosh!

Those who are reading this post, have u ever wonder how many people have u hurt so far in all ur life? Do u have a clue that what u had done now or in the past had a huge impact on others? Hurt travels from one person to another, if u don see it. Then _|_ up urs! Fucking wake up please. Every one has prob and obstacles.... if u think ur's is big and bad, wake up man! I seriously fucking hate 'hypo' and 'immature' people. I am alreadi very immature, if ur worse then me, u might as well jus slap urself each time u wink. And HYPO! screw it man. No more mr nice guy around any more. Though its a small matter, though it can be talked out. But its not about that. Its the brotherhood, the respect and trust that we have. If u jus cant keep that in ur head, then screw you. Shit!

Learn to deal with what u have, and deal it with some effort. If u jus think its that simple, and everything is solve in one go, ur wrong! And if u still don wanna think it through, and make amends. Then screw you man, u needa doc.


I gave love up,
LOVE
YOU enter into it.