First Weekend!

ZOMG! epic! our first weekend break. wha, i'm missing sch alreadi le! i wanna go back sch, to LEPAK! haha.. Though its jus one week of sch, but many things happen, apart from the happy side, the bad side were equally bad.

I know there are many questions in one heart when a problem arise, i noe you all mus be thinking why is it that sadness always fills our life. I'm a nobody to reali advice or answer, but hey.. Sadness is a stepping stone to happiness, without sadness there wont be happiness. Sadness is just like a heavy rain, but once its over, a rainbow will appear.

For my friends who are facing relationship problem, there reali isnt much advice one could give u, bcs in the end the choice is urs. No one is forcing you to choose or do things. U have the power to decide. I know that its hard to face reality when shit happnes, i understand how all of u are feeling right now.. But come on, its not like i wasnt like that before? i have my own story too... what do u guys mean when you say ' i love you, and i cant live without you' ? is it for real, or is it jus a way of showing how much she/he mean to you. When u think that he/she is the right one, but in reality, is it for real? or is it jus some emotions getting you in ur head? I read books, i had close up experience, but in the end. 'Love' is not everything. Imagine if ur ugly or poor or smelly or un desirable. Will the person whom you are with now, love you as much?

We have to enjoy our YOUTH now. In another 10 yrs time, we are adults, and wont have our youth back alreadi. But love will stil exist. Yes 'love' is also part of youth, but we also cant neglect others, like friendship and education. I am so enjoying my youth right now! haha.. ZOMG! i jus had like another 10 more person added into my 'friends' list, argh! i'm glad to have all my friends. Love them all.

I also get to noe that certain some one is talking about me, oh well. If u are reading this, then please. Get on with life! How childish can you get? and how long do u wanna remain like this? it reali is a pity.. But i wont blame you.. you made ur choice.

And finally! FUCK!!! MY ANKLE hurts la sia! niiiiii naaau hiaaa!! ASS!!! that ball from yani, i reali KO sia! some more got cb china bang me... WTF! sia la!!!!!!!!!!


Darel
Pierre
Lee

Part 2!

Alright got the next batch of photos up! I'm so hyped after chalet! argh.... sch was okie la i guess.. teacher was good, class was fun.... FRENCH WAS EPIC!!! i like...... =) i got my french name.. super gay! haha.. its called- Pierre... muhahaha!!! today got SCL meeting also.. it was okie, fun.. haha alright la.. blog till here.. don noe wad to say alreadi.. plus having a headache.. BYE!


I lost a battle then,
But won another,
I'll be a man in the end.

Party!

Everything was awesome OH! Love u guys! serious! haha... I guess there is more to life. And all of u all are what makes my life worth living for. NEXT CHALET! MUS STAY OVER!!! haha!

I'm missing those times now.. aww... =(


I lost a battle then,
But won another,
I'll be a man in the end.

Lingers around me.

Some how or rather, it still lingers in me. I know that at this point of time its hopeless. But its something inside that u treasure so much, and its kinda hard to totally chuck it away. But, i'm trying... i got too much to lose if i carry on like this...

Alright! 2moro is mega morphine! shit! today mus slp early, 2moro needa go get stuff with nich and fel. Hope i and clarence can wake up. This few nights we both damn ass hole, staying up till like 5 in the morning then slp. Then he keep complaining hungry and bored, mother fucker reali needs to get laid man! ( And pls! i not bad influence lo!) Come on la, we're in poly le. What is bad influence? its peer pressure! haha.. Oh fuck man! i'm running outta cigs needa go get some soon.

I jus had news that my band has a new pro key board. NICH! haha... weak man! >< so now, we needa get our covers done first, while completing our first song. Alright, 'PrettyUgly' is working out. Once sch start i hope we can get it going again like last sem. Fuck man! peter in shanghai now, wonder how is he doing.... finding hookers? smoking? drinking?(he cant drink) =)

Every one is special in their own way, every one needs some one special to make them special. Special people is treasured by most people. Its the people around you who makes you special, and if u still don think ur special. Kiss my butt! =)


I lost a battle then,
But won another,
I'll be a man in the end.

Knock Out.

Superb! today slp till like around 2? Jackson kept barking in the morning, shit! had to wake up and give him a nice smack, then went back to slp.

Seriously, totally! this holiday is coming to an end man! haha! Then another freakin sem, then next thing u noe, 2nd yr. Shit man! Don have time too lose le! i needa get on with life. i don wanna live my life thinking back that my poly day sucks, bcs i was emoing my ass off.. Like i said to myself, when everything is over. I'd finally be a man, i would know my path and walk the direction i long abandon.

Its time.....

Sry guys for making you worry and all. Don worry. I think its time i do something to myself. When sch reopens, everything will begin, nothing has ended, everything is jus going to begin. Lets all hope and help one another making the journey a smooth one. Life is too short to be unhappy. And to my bro's, hey come on guys. Cheer up, we have a long way ahead, don give up.


Fuck it!
Darel's Back!

Drowning.

Lack of slp, drown in pain, bursting into tear.

How long can i go on? I cant breathe, cant feel, cant smell, cant taste. Everything is slowly, slowly shutting down. Slowly, slowly vanishing.... i'm never letting it go....


I gave love up,
LOVE
YOU enter into it.

Lose it.

Everything just seems to not make sense, the colours all just faded and suddenly, life became dull. What's really got into me? I reali don noe, but its like no matter wad u eat has no taste, what u see is colourless, what i hear is not getting in. I just feel that i'm starting to shut down towards everything around me. Nothing is made to last forever, eventually everything, everyone has got to leave. One by one, u watch them leave and you know deep down inside, there is nothing you can do.

What is friendship? Love? How about trust? respect? Do people really grow up, or will they jus remain the way they are? If i'm gone, would it be a solution? or just, an excuse to escape. I wanna try total isolation, but will it work? Fuck! there is just so much in my mind now. People who takes important things and see it as though its nothing, will they fucking grow up? Gosh!

Those who are reading this post, have u ever wonder how many people have u hurt so far in all ur life? Do u have a clue that what u had done now or in the past had a huge impact on others? Hurt travels from one person to another, if u don see it. Then _|_ up urs! Fucking wake up please. Every one has prob and obstacles.... if u think ur's is big and bad, wake up man! I seriously fucking hate 'hypo' and 'immature' people. I am alreadi very immature, if ur worse then me, u might as well jus slap urself each time u wink. And HYPO! screw it man. No more mr nice guy around any more. Though its a small matter, though it can be talked out. But its not about that. Its the brotherhood, the respect and trust that we have. If u jus cant keep that in ur head, then screw you. Shit!

Learn to deal with what u have, and deal it with some effort. If u jus think its that simple, and everything is solve in one go, ur wrong! And if u still don wanna think it through, and make amends. Then screw you man, u needa doc.


I gave love up,
LOVE
YOU enter into it.

When life starts to fuck you, you fuck it back!

Today woke up, continue to grind with bryan DGN. Nothing else to do sia. Whole day never smoke also, finally manage to smoke one stick. Feeling okie though. Epic, damn tired. but cant slp. don noe why. ARgh! 2moro i think grind some more! every day grind, abit no life. But atleast got something to do la. or else damn bored. k la, gonna try to turn in. Nits!


I gave love up,
LOVE
YOU enter into it.

Cleaning.

Alrighty, got my room cleaned. Super sweet. I didnt know i have so much stuff. Damn i needa bigger room!

Went to check out on the bachelor apartments. Their AWESOME! serious man, i'm gonna get myself one of those in future. Swt, its like damn comfortable and simple. Screw dreams! i'm in reality. ARgh! today another super bored and tired day, i cant wait till operation power ranger! haha. thinking, should i get wasted or not? hmmm.. have to reali consider.


I gave love up,
LOVE
YOU enter into it.

Most painful things in life so far.

1. To lose a person i love most.
2. To find out my legs are thrashed.
3. To know i made a great mistake, which was too late for me to do anything.
4. To see those i noe in trouble.

Whats worse? To know that i cant do no fucking shit at all and watch everything just happen infront of me. Endless pain, a life time of torture.

LIFE GOES ON.


U single handedly fucked ur life,
But i built mine.
_|_ Eat that.

After effect!

This is serious epic shit! argh! today went down to see the doc, and he said my ankle gone case le, shit! mus wait for it to heal. and it will take long long. FUCK MAN! Then went to clarence place after that, went to visit him, long time never see him sio.

Another fucking epic shit! now when i smoke, i kept vomiting. Seriously! wtf is going on inside of me man.. The feeling sucks big time.. Today siiiibeiii tired, wha piang. Slp late then wake up early, plus travel here and there. zomg sia. nvm! later get one puff, stone alreadi, sure got energy liao. if not then at most slp early lo. argh.. XD


U single handedly fucked ur life,
But i built mine.
_|_ Eat that.

_|_

aww.. time reali past very fast, and holiday sucks ass man! nothing to do, no where to go. Every one has prob, every one busy. Damn ass bored! wanna blog, also don noe wad to blog about. freak! needa get a life man, this cant go on. smoke smoke smoke!


U single handedly fucked ur life,
But i built mine.
_|_ Eat that.

A step at a time.

Today was okie la, i guess. didnt reali do much also. Smoke, eat, rest, tv, bath. Whaat else?

I have something to confess! i jus came to realize, some times maybe not all older girls are mature. It jus pisses me off man! I judged wrong! oh well, nvm. its not too late, hehe. Like wad ganesh had to say, i needa get laid. FreaK! haha, he is so right? or not? i noe, i had to take the step forward, and i did. ARGH! i love my friends! haha


U single handedly fucked ur life,
But i built mine.
_|_ Eat that.

A day at a time.

Got a serious ankle and knee injury going on. Aiyo! a problem at a time man! haha! any way, manage to catch up with my family members, and oh shit! i got caught red handed for smoking again. Fuck, why izzit that when i smoke sure either my parents or aunty see me. SO NOT COOL!

Today's a normal day, nothing much, getting used to it being back to normal. Today raining, thats why cant go any where with my foot like this, DAMN THE WEATHER! haha.. alright la. gotta go get something to munch, mouth itcy. BYE!


U single handedly fucked ur life,
But i built mine.
_|_ Eat that.

Back!

Alright man! Sry ya'll for worrying and helping with all the things that have been going on. Finally, now i am back up on my feet again. Alright! Its back to Chilling, smoking, drinking and Fun Days!
Screw everything that happened. I had to delete my previous post, so as to not affect me any further. Hows every one?! i know i've been a dick recently. Well, its over! i'm Back!

I told myself to quit smoking, but you noe wad? fuck it! haha! i live the way i wan it man! maybe next time! CIGGYY here i come!

Any one wants drinking? craving for it... but no beer pls, i hate beer >< anything but beer.

Lets begind with how i got back. I hanged up my punching bag, i fought it well, i did my dumbells, i did my push ups. I exhaust myself, have a smoke. And I'M BACK MAN! Efing! screw that! haha.. Long time never do my bags, shit my hands all swollen.

I'm not getting pushed about any more! After this, after everything, i learn to be a man, not a pussy! i fight well, and even if i lost! i lost with honour! I'm no push over. Get that in dude!


U single handedly fucked ur life,
But i built mine.
_|_ Eat that.