Days!

Day by day, time is being wasted. Its really, seriously getting more and more bored as the days pass, another 1 more week and my orientation will start! I hope that i have a nice class with nice people in it, or else it's going to be hell for me. Today Nat called me to go ecp to fish, but it was alreadi too late, i was alreadi out and i did not have much time to prepare my gear. So i told him that i'd go next time. Alex is away till the third, he went to taiwan i think, that ass hole ps me so long, ever since after the party, "FUCK".

Recently, my mood has been getting better, confidence lvl coming back. OH ya! i went to GNC to buy this protein formula to drink, fcuk, it cost me like $120 sia! damn ex! and when i drink it, it is supposed to improve my muscle, LOL ><" Another thing, is my pc spoil again, wha liao eh! damn sianx, cant do anything. Recently i've been spending alot, but i know everything is worth it. I didnt feel like its a waste to get my stuff. Now, i'm broke T.T. haha Alright blog till here then, TATA!

New life, new things, new me.

Back!

Okie finally back blogging, the last few days i seriously didnt feel like touching my blog. But its been so long, no choice. Erm this time round its about me going to kallang ice skating. For peeps out there who haven tried it, IT ROCKS!! its my first time la, and i haven fall. haha! ^^ envy envy. Well it was a very tiring day, but it was fun.
This is my cousin Jerom, haha. Best cousin one could ask for, just that he needs some enlightenment for his studies, other then that, his the perfect cousin. ^^
Okie, i can explain this! my new LEVIS slippers! their black! FCUK! you noe why? bcs of the skating skates damn dirty, made my slippers all black! FCUK FCUK FCUK T.T!! And beside my slipper's is my new shades, haha bought it not long ago. Calvin Klein, and its cheap , got a discount from the aunty there. ^^

Thats my dog jackson, haha slping with me. OH! my dad will be coming back soon, and he loves jackson, think his gonna check up on me again if i got take care of jackson well or not. ><
Alright, gonna blog till here. Didnt write much, lazy too. haha any way gotta go, blog next time. Tata. ^^

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Dreams!

Recently, i've been having a hard time sleeping. Each time i close my eyes i see things which i don wanna see. I think i seriously need help, if this carries on i will surely turn crazy one day. Another one month plus, poly will start. I hope that it will keep me super busy, though the chances of bumping into each other is seriously damn freaking high, but i also don care. As long as i'm kept busy, i will stop thinking. This few months that has passes after my O's, i see that alot of people have changed alot, this world is really very amazing. How things work, things break, and come's to life again. People always say we have to treasure what we have, like the people we love or the things that is most valuable to us. I guess this sentence doesnt work for me alreadi, the word ' cherish' is just a word full of bull crap. What is there to cherish when we ourself are not cherished. Yester day i talk to jasmine on the phone (sms), we some how mention about loyalty, what is loyalty? I think that loyalty is alreadi history, long lost alreadi. Life,life,life... Its unfair ><

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Tidy!

Today i stayed home the whole day to pack my fucking messy and untidy room. Erm did some cleaning here and there and arrange some of my stuff, i even hook up a photo. My Cuz went back to malaysia for the week end alreadi, so i will be home alone for this 3 days. But its okie, haha. ^^

While packing my room, i came across something. I sat down for like and hour jus looking at it over and over again. It is the letter that was given to me, during christmas from 'her'. Seriously, at that moment my heart sank, tears almost came out. But i held it back, i force myself to pretend nothing happen. I know by doing so, i'm lying to myself, but i seriously have no choice. Ahhhh! wad the heck! zzz lol. i sound like a bitch. Any way, its time for me to take a bath, blog other times then.

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Missing!

Out of no where, i went to check the 'blog' again. I browsed through the pics, read the contents. My heart sank. I feel like a small person, trapped in a enclosed area shouting your name, but u cant hear me. Its been so long alreadi, why am i still like this? I dont like this feeling, i wan it to go. But i cant help it, but to live with it. Alot of people keep telling me, one day you will find me again, but i myself noe, u wont.

Any way, if any one is looking at my blog, can u tell me what is love? Is it suppose to be a good feeling or a bad feeling? Is love forever? Some one jus give me ur opinion on it. I reali need to noe your views.

I'm starting to move on, i'm getting over it. But still, i don feel very confortable. Izzit normal? i think it is. Any way its freakin late now, gotta turn in la. I'm jus being random, >< lol. haha!

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Stained!

ZzZ, Seriously life is bored!! ( for now) haha, there is nothing much to do. Just waiting for april to come, then can go school. Because thats the only way it will keep me occupied, and most importantly meet more friends! haha Friends is what we really need, they make life alittle easier for us at times. So since i have nothing to do, i edited the two pics which i took at the pub back then.

Does alex look like a zombie? bcs i think he does. lol ^^
Oh, Kennyyyyy! haha, always hear alex call him this way. ><

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2 Days!

Okie its been 2 days since i last blogged alreadi, seriously, life's getting kinda fuck up. Not sure why or how, it just is. Currently waiting for alex to ask his friend about the pub job offer, i seriously hope i can work at there la, each time i think about it some how i feel that it will kick ass. haha. Any way my aunt from australia is coming 2moro night, wha! super scary! haha coming to check up on me.

Another thing, any peeps out there who is viewing my block, please leave the fucking comments to yourself please, bcs of ur fucking shit comments, other people are fighting. Fuck you man _|_
I just dont get it, why are you people so childish man? GROW UP LA! freaks, its about time la, all acting like a small kid. How i wish that in this world every one is matured enough to think, i just come across so many people who don reali think, and act as if they are very matured. If u reali think that way then tell it to my face la! don judge yourself, I JUDGE YOU! sick man.

Okie, now currently is raining, wanted to continue to slp, but my dog's collar bell keeps ringing, no choice have to wake up. I guess nothings gonna happne today also, Alex went to work, i wannna go gym also cannot, its raining so heavy. AIYO! wad a bad day.

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Gym!

Okie, today i woke up, get readi for gym. Then met bryan at my place and we started our journey. We both walked from my place all the way to woodlands gym, it was seriously hot today, Damn it! Then when we reach the gym, i did the usual and after that we headed home. And the day ended, reali nothing much to talk about. Hmmm, i think 2moro alex wants to go fishing, haha i also don noe. See how lo ^^

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Haircut!

okie, today everything i do, seems to be rushing. First of all, i woke up at around 1, read my sms's, bloody hell, everyday sure got ppl sms me or call me in the morning, haha nvm, its cool. Then i need to take my passport size photo for my NYP form, so i went down with bryan, got my hair cut. ZZZ! Every one! my hair is short again, feels like i'm going back to admiralty sec like that, haha. Then i went to buy a bottle of black hair spray and asked bryan to help me spray my hair black, bcs in the photo i cant have long and coloured hair. So, took the photo, went home to bath, thats all lo. Today reali seriously nothing much. Hope there would be another activity soon bah, or else i'm gonna get bored too death le.

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Sick!

Today yet another boring day. Nat jio me to go fishing on friday but i told him alot of us cant make it so i suggested to him that he company his girlfren, but he told me he broke alreadi. Aiyo, now a days many of us peeps broke le, all poor. And the best thing to do without using much money is FISHING! haha erm. today i woke up then called alex and asked him company me go SATA to do my check up, for the poly enrolment la.. So yah, will be going to poly soon, kinda excited about it. Oh well then after that bloody check up, we went to catch a move ' kung fu chef'. Tell u wad, its a damn bored and stupid show, but kinda funny also la. haha. Then after the show, i went home and bath my dog. And thats about it lo, okie la. Thats all about today la.

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Bored!

Okie today is a freaking bored day! its like always raining here! WTF! any way i slept till like 3 p.m today, and in the process, tons of ppl keep smsing me and calling me.. Any way, i woke up and did stuff ( usual stuff ) then called Alex and found out that he also just woke up! haha he skipped his meeting or wadever i think. So we went to gym and around 4, and worked out, haha today it is me who gave up first, seriously cant take it, i've been coming to gym often lo! and a lost 5KG! haha proud proud. ^^ then after gym we went down to cause way to eat, that fucking alex made me eat like 5 eggs. wha! cannot take it, felt like my body is breaking down due to the eggs. haha After that we decided to go play basketball, so we called up some of his peeps and ask if they wanna play or not, only a few said okie. Erm. thats all i guess, the game have not start yet, they all can only play at night, late night. So i came home first and blog alittle lo. Guesss wad, i finally got the pictures of me and my cousin, the pictures that we took the other day when we go to orchard. It was also a fuck up day! my cousin bought 1 towel and boxer for like $150++ lol. wad a turd! i bought a puma pants only, $20 haha cheap ^^ okie i'll just post the pics and log off then.



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Sing!

Wha today was kick ass la! haha Me, bryan, alex and kenny met up at orchard MRT to pass this little girl her clothes she bought from kenny's sis. Then after that we walked all the way to orchard hotel. HAHA! while walking pass there i was looking at the sex shop, it was filled with thousands of dildo's and condoms. But then, FUCK! kenny and alex PS me! knn sia i got lost.. lol. then i ran out and saw a guy in red, and realise ohhh! its kenny. haha then went to the orchard hotel HR and we wanted to fill up the application form. Then the lady saw us and said " I wan your hair short, and BLACK!" wha liao! in my heart i was like 'wtf! you need worker now, not i need money!' haha any way, we told her that we will get our hair done and come back later. So we walked off and Alex decided to go sing K. But kenny wanted to watch movie, bcs its cheaper. So they both argued all the way till we reach party world. Then finally Alex said ' okie! kenny, u come out $1, the rest i come out for you' haha they both ar, damn funny, me and bryan jus stay one corner and laugh at them. So the final decision. SING K! lol haha its my first time though, but fuck it la.. haha jus go in and sing my hearts out.

Seriously it was a fun day la, but certain songs made me felt sad. It reminded me of a lot, but don worry, its a new life now, with new stuff and new me! haha ^^ its my fault, its my choice. Alright blog till here then.

New life, new things, new me.

Pub!

Alright! its a new day. erm... start things out, i'll continue on yesterday's event. Me and alex cab down to hougang ave 2 to meet kenny's fren, after meeting her we waited for ken and we sing a birthday song for her since it was her birthday. Then we stayed at her block's void deck to eat the birthday cake that alex bought but i choose it. While eating, THAT FUCKING ALEX! take the cake's cream and rub it on kenny, then a war broke out. Guess wad!?! every one had cream on their face except me! haha it was damn funny la.. Then no one realise until alex saw be staying far away from them, and he shouted " EH! darel! looks like you have not gotton any cream on ur face yet" after saying that, he dug a finger full of cream, shit man i started to freak out. HAHA! then i went to the table and took the WHOLE CAKE! and chase after him. haha damn funny la..



Okie, so there is only 2 pics, and damn it. i didnt even get a chance to take a photo with the birthday girl. Aiyah! nvm la.. haha ^^ After that we went down to gorges(don noe how to spell), to have a drink! Erm.. we ordered one barrel, calamari and garlic bread. When we were there we saw ALWYN! haha damn it la.. he rocks la, he is like damn fucking cool. SHIT! i jus remember, i never took a pic with him also.. damn it la. okie, move on! erm we drank lo, and played pool, and dice! damn it la don noe why ar kenny like cheating lo, i always had to drink. haha! erm, we drank till like 4 then headed home lo, me kenny and alex were the last 3. haha birthday girl, was tired so she left. WHAHA! i stole the barrel and a decanter! haha wth sia.. alex took damn many cups la! haha


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The fresh start!

Today was seriously a lousy day. It was raining the whole day, there isnt much that i could do. As usual woke up, did my stuff and stayed infront of the pc, i wanted to head to the gym but my muscle was seriously in pain and so i decided to make every sunday a rest day for me, as for the rest of the days i would go to the gym in the morning.

Why must man go to gym constant? keep in shape? to build up their body? for women? health?
wadever the answer, in the end its still bcs of wanting more face, more confidence and more say. Why are women so in love with male's with a "hot" body? izzit that neccessary? so what if we have a fat and short body, i think they should accept as who we are. Each time i go to the gym, i see all the guys who train so hard and strain every single inch of their muscle for women, i will look down at the floor and sigh in my heart. My heart will then say " what a waste!"

At around 7 p.m alex called me and asked me if i wanna go down to kenny's there for a gathering, and bcs i didnt do much the whole day so i told him 'okie'. Then i changed and waited for alex, seriously. ALEX IS A LIAR! he said he bathing but when i was at his door step, i heard his phone ring and he answered! Bull crap man! haha. its okie la, no hard feelings, we're both good pals. Erm, bryan also text me earlier on, he said that he was facing some kinda problem, well i couldnt say or do much , jus hope he is alright and thats good. Bryan, bryan -.-"

So, will be heading down to kenny's and will update when the day is over.

New life, new things, new me.

Life!

Many things have affected me drastically, this past few months. There was ups and also downs, as each obstacle hits me and surprises me in many different ways. I face them all, overcoming them and finally learn from them.

To every one who knows me and reads my blog. Thanks for doing so. I just wanna say that life is fragile, treasure every one around you.Okie enough of this bull crap, i'm gonna blog now!

Hmmm, let me start with friday night though its over alreadi but i wanna write it out so that next time when i look at my blog, i can remember every single thing. On friday, around 7 me and my cousin met up with alex, while we headed to alex's place, my cousin didnt wanna wait with me, so he headed to admiralty for his dental check up. As usual, had to wait for alex and guess wad? he was slping. I called him up and asked him to hurry. So i waited for like 20 mins and headed off to admiralty Mrt to meet up with my cousin and we took a bus to tampines it was a seriously long ride la! and my cousin dose off. haha left me and alex listening to music. When we arrive at tampines, we had to wait for kenny and nick( don noe how to spell his name) when they arrive we all took a smoke and left for another bus to changi aloha. while waiting for the bus nick kept joking on kenny's sperm, and it was like damn funny la! haha he said that kenny sperms are like recruits in the army, while ours are commandos. haha! kick ass man!

When we arrive at the chalet, alwin came to pick us up and escorted us to the chalet. At the chalet, nel and every one was there. I met tons of peeps and we all started talking. The host was away at that time, so we waiting for him and when he came back the party started! Every one drink ar!!!! haha my first drink was chivas with coke, and it tasted like shit man! so we all had fun and drank till like 3. And i was pissed drunk, i couldnt even walk straight and every one had to carry me. I sat at the grass field and vomited all the way till 4, then i really cant take it any more and i told my cousin to cab me back. So alex and nat carry me to the cab and we took the cab home. Guess thats all i can say about that night, bcs i was so drunk i cant recall much now. haha!

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